You won't believe this...

[pattrose]

I went to an all girl party last night and her husband was the waiter and bar tender. Well, he knows I don't drink, can't drink liquer and he said proudly, "I found this drink mixes that have no alcohol in them, so you'll have virgin drinks." I was so excited. I could drink what everyone else was, but mine would be virgin. So he made me a frozen drink called mudslide from TGIF and proceeded to put it in the margarita machine and wahlah, I had a virgin mudslid. I told him when I took the first drink that it was cool cuz it tastes like it had alcohol in it. They all laughed, I took my huge drink and sat down and started partying. He gave me another one when I was done and I almost finished it and he grabbed it out of my hand. I looked stunned of course and he said, "I'm so sorry Patt, there is alcohol in this. 16%, so you've had two drinks with that and he used a ton of mudslide. *sigh* I haven't drank anything since I was 25 for a good reason and now I was tipsy at a party. He and his wife kept apologizing, but I told them I could taste the alcohol plus I was way too relaxed with strangers. I should have known. Usually, I make an appearance and then an hour later I leave. I got there at 4:30 to help her set up and left at 10:30. So yeah, I was drunk off my ass. :( Not to mention I"m on heavy duty drugs that don't mix well with drinks. I had a good time, but now I have to start all over again. You have no idea how badly I wanted another mudslide. Today I was thinking I should get something like that to make up for the guys for FAther's Day and realized, I wanted it. The disease never leaves. And damn it, now I have to start all over again. *sigh*

I miss my dad so much, but especially on FAther's day. It's going to be one of those days. It'll be fine. It'll be fine. It'll be fine. Yes, I now feel a little better. Have a good day everyone.

Love, Patt

Comments

[finlaure.livejournal.com]

I would be soooo upset if someone slipped me alcohol. not only would it totally mess up the many medicines I am on, it would break my sobriety. almost, wow, over ten years now. I am not sure I could forgive the person.

[pattrose.livejournal.com]

They truly thought the mix for drinks was alcohol free. So I can forgive them. For me it's been a long while, but I know it wasn't slipped to me, it was pure accident. I'll just start over.

[bluewolf458.livejournal.com]

Careless on someone's part, though - the thing should have been very clearly marked 'contains alcohol', and it obviousy wasn't. Good that he noticed it, though. Hope things aren't too tough for you.

[pattrose.livejournal.com]

I'll be fine. Not to worry. I'm strong.

[tinnean.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry this happened, Patt. {{{Patt}}} I know you can bounce back, but it's a shame that you have to. :-(

[snailbones.livejournal.com]

Oh hon! I'm so sorry - especially when they were trying so hard to be nice too. I guess these things happen, and thank goodness you know to look out for cravings and squash them quickly. It's a beast of a disease *hugs* And missing your dad too. None of it's fair. *more hugs*

[grey853.livejournal.com]

That's horrible. Having been sober for some time myself, I know how hard it is to start over. {{{Hugs}}} One day at a time, one day at a time, that's my mantra. Some days I say it a lot more than others.

[pattrose.livejournal.com]

Really, I'm fine. I'm doing well and found out I'm much stronger than I thought. :) All is good.

[pattrose.livejournal.com]

Thank you for the hugs, SNail. I'm doing rather well. No complaints. A few evil thoughts now and then, but my inner self took care of it. :) And as for missing my dad, I'll always do that. Right? Which might be a good thing to miss him so much. He's probably loving it. :)

[pattrose.livejournal.com]

One day at a time. That's my mantra too. I'm doing well. No complaints. I can do this as I did before. This time it's easier because it was only one night. :) The friends that had this party have called me four times to check on me. They are very dear and feel awful. Next time I'll stick with Dr. Pepper. LOL

[suemc.livejournal.com]

Good luck with the start over, but hopefully it will be easier as it was just that one day. We are here to help if we can.

[pattrose.livejournal.com]

It wasn't full blown alcohol and I didn't drink it all night, so it was easier than I thought. Not that I didn't want to run down and get me some Mud slides. LOL It just proves that it never leaves. But no worries, I'm doing very well.

[cluesby4.livejournal.com]

On no! Bless you!

[stargatesg1971.livejournal.com]

Oh dear, not good at all. I'm glad your friend spotted it contained alcohol in the end, shame it wasn't a little sooner.

*hugs*

[pattrose.livejournal.com]

It was only the two drinks, so I didn't have to fight the buzz feel for days or anything. I'm doing fine and back to one day at a time. :) Thanks for the hugs.

[dimity-blue.livejournal.com]

I'm catching up on LJ.

I'm so sorry this happened to you, Patt. I'm glad it was a genuine accident but how upsetting for you. *hugs*

[pattrose.livejournal.com]

Today I'm cooking and baking and doing just fine. Not to worry. I've got pretty good control over it, so it wasn't as hard from just one night. Thank you for the hugs.